Through the ups and downs, the days I’ve wanted to pull my hair out and the nights when I felt life were perfect I’ve forced myself to establish a quota on which to live by: Positive energy only.
Before I left America, I had a busy life going. Between work, school and other recreational activities I barley had time for my family and even less time for my friends. Tossed into Satun, for about 2months I had all the time in the world. I had to start from scratch all over again and though I didn’t realize it at the time, establishing a life when you don’t know anyone is possibly the most difficult thing to do.
The past week, I finally found a schedule that allows me to come home exhausted satisfied and excited. My life now revolves around my boxing training and though extremely tiring, I had never before really believed endorphin’s made you happy .. I guess I just wasn’t working hard enough.
5am every morning I go for a 3mile run, come home, go to school or whatever activity the day holds. I arrive home around 5pm and I again run to the neighborhood gym where a 50yr old man built like an olympic athlete trains me to gain the muscle I need in order to competitively compete in Muay Thai.
As I run through the neighborhoods in the mornings and evenings, its a different feeling to have people recognize you and invite you to come in for a drink of water, to pass children on the street and have them call your name or ride their bikes alongside you. Coming from a city, I’ve never had that and as I begin to learn the names of those who already know mine, I begin to feel like a part of my community.
My attitudes, my motivations and my choice of activities have changed so much since I’ve been in Thailand. And nothing makes me happier than to recognize and embrace them all as positive changes than will stay with me in the future.